Sick Kids

Oh my god... both my kids are sick and we aren't sleeping. Emily is coughing so badly. I hate when she gets a cough, it goes so deep into her chest. It keeps me up at night. Owen just has a runny nose, but it's been runny for the last 3 weeks. He's supposed to get his shots next week and I'm not sure if he should with his runny nose.

Also I have only 3 more days to get my paper done. Adam stayed home today so I could work but I'm getting stuck in my grounded theory. I'm thinking that maybe I should skip ahead so that I don't get hung up. But it still all has to get done. I'm hating, hating, hating this! F$@K I'm wishing I never signed up to take on this 20,000 dollar hell. And Adam won't let me forget it, I wasn't even sure I wanted to start doing this. It was him that made me put in my application. He should have done his school first and then all would be in a much better place. Instead I'm banging my head against the stupid table!

Procrastination

Okay here it goes....

I have one week and one day to finish the rewrites on my thesis. I have help looking after Owen and I'm sitting here looking at my blog thinking I haven't posted in ages....

I hate this rewrite thing!! I don't want to do this anymore. Is it possible to hate the topic that you started out loving and thinking that you need to write a thesis on? I can't stand my topic anymore, I'm so bored of living with this everyday. Thing is if I get this done then I won't have to live with it everyday which would be awesome, if I don't get this rewrite done then I will have to continue living with this as there is no way that Adam will let me get away with not finishing my thesis! Sucks, sucks, sucks. I want to go hind my head in a hole.

Instead I guess I'll go work on my paper.
Ciao